today, im either losing a friend (or two)

and i cant figure out why im letting it happen


part of me cant seem to wait for things to get over and done with

but another big part of me wants them to sympathize with me (which they really shouldnt)



again

i ask

why

am i

like this



how do i change

how should i find a new perspective

why am i always making it difficult for myself

and everyone else


im sorry and i will always be